Update

Uncle Dwayne's cancer may have spread to his spine. I am terrified.

Wise advice from Grandma

Me: Hello Grandma!
how are you doing
?

Grandma:Hi Lyn, I'm fine!
Its good to hear from you. How are you doing?

Me: VERY busy

Grandma: Oh - what's keeping you so busy?

Me; school, work, stuff like that
I have tons of homework and tons of extra curriculars

Grandma: I know that can get pretty tough at times. I was reading an article in the newspaper the other day and it says to put away your laptop and go to bed. You need lots of sleep/rest to handle all that. What are the extra curriculars?
It was written by a student who found himself in the same situation.

Me:I work with a literary journal and a theater company

Grandma: Wow - three jobs in all - school, journal and theater company. Don't burn out. We want to keep you around and healthy. We love you.

Me:haha, well, not all of them take up tons of time all the time
they more of take up time in bursts

Grandma: I know how that goes. Why cn't the be predictable?

Me: I know!
Each of them separately aren't too bad, but all combined they're a lot of time

Grandma: Well, it's great talking to you. One of these days I'll start on the quilt you gave me for Christmas. Gotta get through organizing my taxes though and Virginias. I guess you are getting lots of experience doing all that. Just know when you need to say ,"No!"
I have to send out our prayer requests to those on the email list. I hate to quit talking because we do this so seldom.
Write about your experience with these organizations sometime and send it to me.

Me: I'll have to do that sometime

Grandma: Talk to you later. bye

New things

Well, my uncle's cancer is back. In five places in his brain and some lumps on the skin of his head. The prognosis is not good.

Story ideas for this quarter

1. A woman works at the DMV taking the pictures for the drivers. She falls in love with those she photographs. She sees someone who is the epitome of everything she wants to be, searches for her and tries to adopt every aspect of their actions and livestyles. She ultimately faces rejection and the impossibility of it. Should the person she follows be Schizophrenic? Driver? Younger? Rebellious?

2. Romanian young woman, faces the pressure to be safe, be totally safe. Works at a store that caters towards rich tourists. Does she let herself deliberately be unsafe?

3. Office Noir Comedy. Intricacies of Office Drama, over done. Bringing validity into the boring. Office Intrigue? How are people coping with grief? The five stages of grief.

I am vastly amused.

So, you know how I'm always bagging on people for not being accurate with guns in workshops?

One of my workshop buddies is now asking me for help. It is vastly fun.

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I have tons of ideas on what to do for my advanced fiction story. But they all seem WAY too literary, or WAY too personal, or, you know, way too not literary. My screenwriting teaching has taught me to be commercial. Which is good, but yeah. It's a bit looked down upon in the fiction world.

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I really want to write something about Romania.

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Of course, the one time I venture outside without my jacket and umbrella, it starts to rain.

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I just wrote the line into a critique:

besides the pretty words, there’s not much to distinguish this story from any Soap Opera. Actually, the story and characters are generic to the extreme, and ultimately forgettable.

And that is the last line of the critique.

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I had a weird freaking dream last night.

Well, it was really this morning, cause I didn't go to bed until 2 and had troubles falling asleep because of insecurities....so yeah.

In this dream, my roommate, had a bunch of douchbag friends. And they kept on coming up to my loft, every moment of every day, no matter what I did.

So onetime, to get away from them, I went to an outdoors pet market. Where I almost won a pink kitten.

But then, I had to eventually go back to my apartment, and my loft. And found my roommate's friends strip searching my room, trying to find anything sketchy.

New Years Resolutions

A bit late, but...whatever.

1. Have a better self esteem. Let me clarify. I have a decent self esteem when it comes to myself physically. I just have trouble seeing myself as a person other people want to be friends with. Which is stupid. I have amazing friends who would not be friends with someone who did not deserve it. I need to stand up for myself when friends kind of cast me aside. I should NOT be a punching bag for things I didn't do or things I didn't mean to do.
2. Figure out something with my religion.
3. Sing more.
4. Be bolder. Smile more. Dress how I want to, not how I think people would like. That means breaking out that fluffy pink skirt I got for a halloween costume. That means wearing the little white dress without stockings. That means trying to curl my short hair.
5. Get over my background a bit. Don't think I have to do everything within the preset Whittier Christian rules. Cause some of those rules are stupid. Basically, stop feeling guilty for stupid stupid things.
6. Speaking of which, Forgive myself when I make mistakes. I was up last night obsessing about something mean I said LAST YEAR. I need to stop that.
7. Listen to cool music. Yeah.
8. Go to more concerts. Yeah. That.