Me

I am not perfect.  And I need to be less so.

I'm always concerned with trying to appear perfect.  Cover up any nasty backstory.  

And don't always ask, just do.

I'm always worried about offending people if I do, though.  I want to just say things, do things, make mistakes, act impulsively.  But...I don't want to cross boundaries that make people uncomfortable.  I don't want to assume stuff that hurts people.  I don't want to just act and end up losing people because of it.  

And then that puts me right back into the "appear" and "be" perfect mode.  And that has far too high a cost.

I can't help but think of all the things that can go wrong.

I am forced to think of the consequences of my actions.

BUT I DON'T WANT TO.