ten days of writing challenge.

The ten days of writing challenge.

Day 4: write 6 things you wish you had never done.

Well, this is difficult. For everything I could think of, if I didn’t do it, my life would be massively different, and not generally in good ways. So remember that when I’m listing these.

Also, these are rather vague. Deal with it.

1. Have crushes so easily and so deeply my freshman year of college. It made me ignore my schoolwork, ignore my true friends, put far too much emotional energy into it, and nothing came from it except for broken friendships and the knowledge that I would never have worked out with any of the three guys anyways.

2. My living situation for one of the summers in undergraduate. Yes, I was saving money, and living with a friend, but it eventually (like a year and a half and many twists and turns later) led to dissolving of that friendship and a lot of troubles with almost everyone I know. Granted, if I hadn’t, then I’d still be friends with some negative people in my life…but that was a painful way to do it, and it caused more problems than just the dissolution of that friendship.

3. Trusted one of the three people I hate. Ever. That man was never worthy of anything resembling trust. Granted, without that, I would probably have a way too idealistic view of humanity which would not have been good when entering the world…but it was very negative and hurtful.

4. Trusting a one friend’s dealings with another. I took this friend at their word, and didn’t realize that they were systematically lying. It almost cost me my friendship with the other friends, who are too precious to lose like that.

5. Taking the road trip up north freshman year. I was taken advantage of (or, rather, my car was), I lost money out on it because people wouldn’t pay for gas, and it was motivated purely out of selfishness. I didn’t really have any good memories from it, mostly just memories of people mocking me and tearing me down, and it gave those people the message that I could just be mocked and treated that way.

6. Being so timid my first semester of grad school. Granted, my summer was a bit traumatizing, and I didn’t really trust myself to make friends at all, but my classmates are awesome and they completely blew my expectations out of the water.